Not anything LGBTQIA+ related, just a friendly reminder to myself and others that I’ve been wanting to write.
It is okay to not be happy all the time. It is okay to be nostalgic, to miss the way things once were, even if many things have improved since then. It is okay to miss those who have moved on and left you behind. Every now and then, it is alright to indulge in moments of good old fashioned self pity, just as long as you don’t stay there. It is okay to cry when you think of painful things you swore you got over years ago; it is perfectly acceptable if the hurt is still there, running deeper than you ever imagined. Healing takes time, be patient with yourself. Empathy is painful. Compassion is painful, but the world needs more people willing to act on it, and it is understandable if you find yourself overwhelmed by the sheer amount of pain and suffering there is in the world. Do not feel guilty is you experience compassion fatigue; remember the good intentions and big heart that led you to this exhaustion. Until the day our hearts stop beating, we are a work in progress, ever changing and growing. Don’t beat yourself up if you grow more slowly than others. We all are fighting our own unique battles, and it is unfair to compare them. Keep trudging on. Everything passes, all horrid days come to an end. Feel the fatigue in the evening, release the tears that have build up, and charge into tomorrow hoping for the best, preparing for the worst, knowing something wonderful has to come eventually. In the meantime, remember that you are not the only one who is struggling, you just may be the only one willing to admit it while everyone else is cowering behind a mask of happiness, living life at a break neck speed in the hopes of outrunning their demons. It is incredibly brave to take off the mask of happiness and look at all the raw, smothered pain.
Thanks for reading my babbling attempt at encouragement.
Keep on Aceing It!